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201443 minPGdocumentary

If I were

201443 minPGdocumentary

For the first time in several years, Vova Kayukov leaves his psycho-neurological boarding school near St. Petersburg to see the city outside.

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Alexandr Kashcheev,

Zhenya Berkovich

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For the first time in several years, Vova Kayukov leaves his psycho-neurological boarding school near St. Petersburg to see the city outside.

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Alexandr Kashcheevdirector

Zhenya Berkovichdirector

Alexandr Kashcheevwriter

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Vova Kayukov lives in a psycho-neurological boarding school near St. Petersburg after his mother died from cancer. He has a severe form of cerebral palsy, which confines him largely to watching television and drawing celebrities. For the first time in years, Vova steps outside the boarding school, viewing the city through the lens of crime dramas. His experiences reflect a life shaped by isolation and the influence of popular culture. Directed by Alexandr Kashcheev, the film runs for 43 minutes.

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